Why is it that you can go months without any sign of dating excitement WHATSOEVER, and then suddenly be flooded with problems from multiple angles??
Last weekend was one of the floods.
I had a date with Mr. Valentine on Friday night. I was moderately excited.. or, in other words, not overly giddy but still planning on having a grand time. The date itself was a fabulous night of four wheeling and roasting hot dogs. However, I'll spare you those boring details. What you DO need to know is this: conversation and chemistry was better than ever! We talked easily the entire night, entering a new level of "deep talking" that we had not previously reached. I really feel like I got to know him better... and actually liked what I got to know. On top of that, his communication continued to be superb. He loves to break all sorts of unwritten/unhealthy dating rules! Examples: he brought up several times during the night the fact that he was interested in me, asked me flat out if he was friend zoned or not, told me how fun it was to have my arms around him, and then told me how uplifting and inspiring I was to be around. While this all could be cheesy or absolutely revolting from a different guy, it was absolutely adorable coming from him! By the end of the date my scale had definitely gone up!
Purposeless side note for entertainment only: During the date I had to use the bathroom SOO bad. Being away from any sort of restroom, I opted to go "wilderness style". He seemed to think this was rather amusing. But hey,desperate times call for desperate measures.
I guess it's safe to say I would certainly be willing to go out with Mr. Valentine again. While I still am not completely smitten or convinced we would be compatible in a relationship, I have enough fun with him to see what could happen.
Now let me get to the flood part.
After being dropped off by Mr. Valentine, I returned home to the Roommate hanging out at my apartment. Long story short, less than 12 hours after returning from my date with Mr. Valentine, the Roommate vocally confessed his feelings for me. Where his previous two attempts of declaration had been vague and weak, this one was quite blunt.
His exact words?
"I really like you but I know if I do anything about it I'm going to freak you out."
The conversation lasted for quite some time, but I somehow left him with only the thought that "I was extremely confused about my feelings for him" and that "yes I was a little freaked out". The poor chap. If I was him, I'd be dying of frustration right now. And that was over a week ago. I went out of town for a week and left him with nothing but more confusion!
So now I sit, having returned from my trip, with quite the dilemma inside me. I need to talk to The Roommate, for he clearly deserves an explanation. And then there is Mr. Valentine. They are both being very vocal about their feelings for me.. But who do I prefer? Could I even see myself dating either of them??
I know part of me is simply flattered, but that is a horrid excuse. I need to dig down and discover my true feelings ASAP. Or I'm afraid all three of us are ruined forever*.
*Please excuse my mild exaggeration. I'm only trying to add to the drama.
The One Timer: Over and Out
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