He's a hard egg to crack.

Hello all! Spring has sprung! But alas, we're in Utah, so chances are it's going to snow again next week.
But let's enjoy the beauty that is the outdoors while it lasts! This is definitely what I've been doing; just enjoying and trying not to worry about anything. You know, those usual things that I worry about: boys and school. While I'm trying not to be stressed or think about it too much, I do still want to recap what has occurred between myself and Bodhai.

While all of this Rand nonsense has been going on for the last 6 weeks, the Bodhai situation was moving forward and then has kind of paused... Let me explain:
4 days after I went on that date with Rand and he explained himself to me and I told him I didn't want to date him, well then I went on an awesome date with Bodhai.
At one point on this date, we were adventuring on a snowy hill and it was beautiful... and then he kissed me! It definitely wasn't unwelcome, but it was completely unexpected. I was thrilled, but as soon as I got home I realized that I didn't even feel like I knew him and didn't know if I liked him that much yet. But I figured things would start progressing quickly and that we would be dating in no time.
False.
[This seems to be a trend with me: being completely misguided in how things, relationships specifically, will play out.]

Bodhai is great. I like spending time with him. He is really into music. Like REALLY into music. He is super funny and adorable and we have fun together. After spending a few weeks hanging out with him and having fun, I realized that I didn't even know anything about him! He is awesome and talks a lot - but it feels like often he isn't really saying anything. He is just not very open and it's hard to get to the deeper parts of his personality. He is just one hard egg to crack. I've realized that this is how I am some times too. I've actually realized that in general we are super similar in our personalities, which is why we get along so well. But we do not really have similar interests. So we can talk and talk and talk forever, but when we try to share the things we are really passionate about - well, we just don't understand each other. It's so weird.

So basically, the last month we've hung out a few times and the first few times we kissed some more... it was great, but I wasn't really sure how I was feeling about the whole thing. I kind of get the feeling that we both are interested in each other, but not super invested in it. So neither of us really makes too much of an effort to talk or to see each other, though we love it when we do see each other. Who knows what is going to happen with this one... at this point, I would like to see if we could date, but I'm fine if it doesn't work out.

Yes, I know...
I'm the Friendly Kisser.