You must all be thinking, why would an Observer want to be a part of a love blog? Very good question. In all honesty, your guess is as good as mine. Maybe you all can learn from my mistakes. In my many years on this earth, not once have I had a single romantic relationship. Sure there may have been times that it was leading towards that, but in the end everything just sort of failed.
Because of the failures, I keep thinking things like: what is wrong with me? Am I just not good enough? Am I too weird? Too crazy and immature at times? Too much like one of the guys? (These are venomous thoughts. Never think them. They mess with your head. Case and point.)
Well... We may never know the answers.
But I have been privy to seeing many relationships. (Ergo the name.) Each one is VERY different but all are educational. From other's experiences, I get to see what I will eventually want and will not want in a relationship. The one thing that terrifies me most is that someday I will end up settling. I have seen many couples settle because they think that nothing better will come. I start to think that those people might be me in a couple of years. But the one thing that keeps me going is hope.
"Hope guides me, that is what gets me through the day and especially the night." -Knight's Tale
The hope that one day, I will find that someone who will make me laugh. Who will make me want to be a better person. The person that I can grow old with.
But until then... Here's to hoping!
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