Is it FEAR or just NOT THERE?

Remember Mr. Valentine? Yeah, I know. It was a long time ago. Last summer, to be exact. 

Flash back: things sort of just fizzled out on my part and I started slightly avoiding him while still trying to be friends. 

Get this: He's back. Kinda. 

As far as Mr. Valentine goes, I spent all last semester trying to not lead him on. Over summer, I was willing to see if something could work out... but then we didn't see each other for a month and I lost interest. Instead of talking to him, I just kinda acted standoff-ish. I could tell he was super confused.. however, I did the cowardly thing and let it slowly fade away. 

Finally, at the end of last semester, I started being myself again. I let myself flirt a little and just have fun and be open with him. We talked about relationships in general and before long talked about our "summer relationship" and its problems. I thought I was home free! We could just be friends and I wouldn't lead him on!

Rule #7: Unless you give the boy closure, he can and will take any opportunity to invite himself back into your love life!

Last week, I learned this the hard way. Okay, not super hard. He didn't try to make-out with me or anything. But still. 

I went over to his house to say hello and ended up staying for a few hours. Over the course of the evening, Mr. Valentine proceeded to ask me increasingly awkward questions. 

"So.. would you have dated me last summer?"
"So... if you ever liked me again, would you tell me?"
"So... would you like to go on another date with me? I'd really like that."

By the end of the third question, I was squirming to get out of there. I DON'T KNOW!! was the honest answer to all his questions. Here's the thing: he's attractive, he's fun, he's adorably sweet, he thinks I'm the bomb.. Why am I not all over this!?! I DON'T KNOW! Hence my completely vague responses to his questions. 

My point is: do I like him and I'm just afraid of his forwardness? Or is it just "not there" for me? 

I need answers quick cause Sigmond is making his way back into my mind. (We have a lunch date tomorrow. No worries, there will be another post soon to explain THAT craziness.)

Until then.  

The One Timer: Over and Out.